And something else achieves confusion. Well, my relationship with Jen (C) has changed for sure. Isn't it amazing how you learn something new everyday? I found out that her boyfriend, which she broke up with, is still around. This is why I thank God that Em was away when it happened. I could never go for that. Jen is a smart girl, very smart infact. Everyone of her friends is friend with this guy, they have shunned her enough already. It's really not fair for her to be going through what she is going through. It is a Sin. We have been so close the last week, its a start to a great friendship. But what is with me? Do I pick the girls who are in need of constant attention? The ones who have constand decisions and problems? I guess that is just life. The one I have to live with. However, I still want to hang around with Jen, definately. She is amazing. I wish I could do more. I wish that I could make her troubles disappear, but there we go with the looking after the other person thing that I had trouble with before. Am I destined to be the guy who consoles people? When can I reach my true calling? What will I do? All these questions are ones that I will have to answer in the upcoming weeks and months to decide what I really want with all this. I need to pick a road and go with it. It is more difficult decision that I ever thought imaginable. I hope to God I get into 3rd year Business, because if not that will be a heart-breaker for sure. I guess I am just plagued with heart-breaks. After all, isn't the guy who people always go to the one who gets stuck with everyone else's problems? I hope not, but it just seems that way. It seems that everything changes within that broken-heart, and is in constant cruise control. I might as well face the fact that this will be the life I lead for now, until something/someone comes around and changes it. That person might have arrived, or have we just set sail to a desert island, never to dock at reality.

Everything is going well today, nothing to complain about. Exam tomorrow, yuck. Ah well, I guess I might have to study for it...tomorrow morning, haha. Well done...

I told her that I have a hard time trusting people, how will she respond in the end? Will there be a beginning? Time always has a way of telling you these things, doesn't it? I hope that she isn't scared off because that would suck, very much so, but I have learned not to get too far into things, unless you know for sure. I will know come the end of this week. Like I said, Time knows all...and it is official, I am a loser. Damn, what's wrong with me?